I’m gonna be writing something very personal here in a long time, it serves as an open mail to certain people! It doesn’t have to be read in a manner where you disappoint me, or in a manner way I am the victim, just read it as it is.
Since graduating from school, I have always knew that my calling is to see ALL the schools in Malaysia changed and moved for Jesus and I strongly believe my calling and I am willing to be sold out for it. However, 4 years after leaving schools you know what I find the biggest challenge is? It’s the CHURCH, it isn’t my desire to put down any church, and I honestly am saddened with the fact that churches like these exist among us. “The Biggest obstacles churches have when reaching out to schools, is the church”.
When I did what I did the last time, I knew it was almost a onetime event, I prayed it wasn’t there was dreams there was visions and of course there were loads of desire. (I guess there still is if not I wouldn’t be writing this?) I thank and praised God for everything He did and still will do, and acknowledge that through it all, all things came from Him. But it saddened and hurts me that we have jokers out there calling themselves leaders who preach against their own kind, not because they are not doing it right or they are doing it the unbiblical way, but because they are doing it so well they are afraid the possibility of sheep stealing is just too eminent.
This issue of stealing is like migration, I mean come on has any church declare openly that their church is against migration? If you have bravo because if you have I think then you have maybe earned the right to stop “sheep stealing” from taking place. Yes, many teens can’t really decide at their age can they? And that’s why they are kononya being swayed from left to right, but I want to believe this, if you lead a strong youth ministry, and have faith in the leaders you have raised and taught your teens well, why then should you fear another church “stealing” your sheep? Like hello………
Churches in Malaysia are too busy too occupied with how awesome we are to the point we fail and can’t look beyond the four walls of the church, some bigger churches also have four floors to look at =) and so they go around preaching “their gospel” that tongues has seized, that God doesn’t need loud worship, that the holy spirit isn’t here anymore and a whole load of things that really belong to the geothermal electric plant.
After having said all that I have said, thank you for giving me that opportunity to serve along you guys =) it was much honour and joy. I guess its time to move on to much much greater things, than to remain in something that will remain where it shall remain. The teens that I continue to share my life with, will make their own decision whether or not to serve alongside the next team, I shall give them my outmost support and blessings, however if they do decide to let go and focus on “The thing which is greater” I pray that we shall all know how to be gracious since the advice was given to my teens already, that people from this particular group of people should stay away from the team, since THEY ARE ALWAYS LATE AND HAVE TO ALWAYS LEAVE EARLY. I take to this statement personally, and shall allow God to deal with whatever unclean gossip that has been going on behind our backs. Yes I love each one of you, and when I gave, I gave all that I had and have, and since its time to take back and hold back and direct the strength and energy that I have to else where I shall do that. But please don’t make them feel like their efforts weren’t appreciated, yes they had made many mistakes, but ultimately we all do make mistakes. Sorry we don’t produce “perfect” leaders; if you do maybe you can share with me the secrets. It hurts and I am saddened that it has come to a place as this.
I shall continue serving Jesus and the schools in the way and the doors which has been opened to us, and you can count on me when I say this, if I gave you guys a hundred percent I will give these projects and career which I have ahead of me 500%. I have a goal to meet a target to reach and a people to share life with, life as it is, is already busy and exciting. I give my blessings and love to everyone of you guys and trust that it will indeed be another awesome year for each of you.
It’s just bizarre to me, non Christians having open house during Christmas? Dressing up as Santa? Taking pride in the fact that there is a free flow of alcohol? Well I guess someone is going to come after me right now, for writing such a post but maybe my confusion and uneasy feeling have caused me to have a deep sense of anger! It was funny to see an altar with a Christmas tree with a star all in that same living room.
Blessed Christmas =)
This is the new guy Rex haha
look at the LCLY face, feel like punching right haha
super fa hao woman Mandy Moore wanna be
Honestly I wished I could just close both my eyes and be happy and just flow like how the others are doing it. However, every time I see that kind of joy and happiness glowing out of you, it worries me! As I read and hear of things there is a deep burden pressing on my heart. I don’t think the Lord can lift it up so easily, not at least this particular one, simply because it was Him who laid this burden on me. It bothers me, to see how someone I love chose to live in the moment and not choosing to live in a manner where our future is secured and surrounded by God’s best. With the rate we are handling our beliefs and principles, Christians in Malaysia will not be any different from the jokers in the Anglican Church, the very leaders whom we look up too will just become the next Barrack Obama (Mr. Yes man) yes to gay marriage, yes to abortion, yes to terrorist, yes to being nice to the axis of the evil one. Well yeah, to be honest, the cause we are fighting for isn’t a very lucrative one, those who succumbed to the world and indulge in hedonism will surely be far better of enjoying then those who chose to live by God’s principles.