just superb =) all done by a buddy Chern Liang jus so so proud of him and this amazing Church!

 

Most of all…. the main point was come for CAMP

Between “Calling” and “Comfort”

Just want to say a big thank you to a certain group of people who loves reading my blog and have through the years help me keep my readership up going up! It’s good to know people read your post isn’t? I mean why would you write something that didn’t matter after all? This is another one of those “offensive” “defensive” and “hantamsive” post, so if you feel a punch is coming your way move out!

Between Calling and Comfort- I thought of the title for this post a little and I felt yeah this is THE ONE for THE ONEs. So here we go!

“Then Jesus added, “I can guarantee this truth: A prophet isn’t accepted in his hometown.”

I’m not calling myself a prophet nor am I indicating that the organizations I’m involve with is a prophetic ministry, because we aren’t even close to Prophetic we are Apostolic ~if you can’t feel the sarcasm feel it now =) ~

Having moved on from a church to another some years back, I have in fact grown very thick skin and immune to critics who say I am ungrateful, unfaithful and all sorts of judgmental words that could have really made me bitter and hurting, but guess what recently someone called me lazy and fat “ouch” but who cares =) . I don’t know what can and will make me happier serving my Jesus at the present stage of my life.

Thank God and our Jesus for a guarantee. Like seriously! Because if not we would have felt all so poor thing and evil! But let me just say this straight forwardly and blatantly. I’m not interested at all to offend anyone, make anyone sad nor am I looking forward to see the destruction of a fellow believer’s church or organization.

1. We have a calling over our lives and that’s to minister and win souls for Jesus Christ. How am I suppose to be apologetic about the fact that we have a great team of leaders and a bunch of sold out leaders, who when you see him or her you can’t help but really claim that Jesus is alive? I strongly believe in 2 things,

A)     If you have been leading a strong and well rooted youth organization, which have been catering to all the needs of your teens or students, they won’t and will not lari away from your awesome loving care.

B)      It can’t be someone else’s fault that when you fail to meet the needs of your own teens, or CF members and have a Team or committee that isn’t unified in spirit to give God your all, but to only gossip and talk about how “bad” others are, and then blame others for the lack of growth or the lost in numbers!

Our dedicated, sold out, crazy and sacrificial team of leaders, “risk” their exam results, boyfriend girlfriend relationships, relationship with friends and family, sacrificing all the time they have to get this teens to where they are today! We spent thousands upon thousands of hard raised money to fund every activity, meeting, sharing and more often than not using our own pockets to pay bills which “should” be paid kononya the “church”. They serve God with all they have got, and to be honest with many of you, they and I owe no one an explanation as to what we do, but the leaders above us and towards the Daddy up there who has given us the call.

Commitment – I know not all our teens are sold out and committed to the same cause as we are, but I know we are getting somewhere. But one thing I will never compromise is the fact that our leaders must not ever be missing from a Sunday service! That’s because we pray, we fast and we cry out to God and we say “give us teens, grow this house of yours, and we love them” and yet when they come, I have no one to wash their feet, no leader to pray with them, stand by them and get to know at least the second alphabet in their name. So if getting involve elsewhere means sacrificing your “calling” I say to you forget it! What I have is a concert, rock band, and a big time Rally every Sunday, the only difference is this, one has direction and vision which will remain the same, the other is based on the committee and chairman of that year, prove me wrong if you’re unhappy about this statement. So when we have good leaders we flourish, and when we don’t we still do it anyway because its tradition – point blank. Ouch but its true… dude think about it!

We made a decision somewhere and at some point, if teens are in schools we will go there, if teens are in cyber café (we will have super matured leaders who will not backslide so that they can bring people out to mamak and connect after the CC and then bring them to church) we will go there, if they are in malls we want to get there, if they like good music we won’t give bad music, if they need cool looking materials to direct their focus and attention we will have awesome and attractive designs to communicate the LOVE of JESUS CHRIST! Ultimately, if serving Jesus means stepping on some people’s toes, we will still do it! Because we have been called to serve Jesus, we can’t stop just because people put their toes in front of you to be stepped and then scream “ouch”.

To be honest, I’m wasting my time writing this post! But I know I need to make a stand and I’m going to say this out loud – it can’t be always that when your organization is not growing that someone is stealing your sheep, it can’t be always that when other people’s organization is growing that they are only providing entertainment!

I believe in this very much since I’m in food, you can’t tell the other Char Koay Teow vendor not to cook her Koay Teow so nice just because your koay teow is bad right? You can’t tell the Chicken Rice Shop to close down just because they have air-conditioning while the corner shop doesn’t have right? You can’t tell Papa Rich to close shop because Old Town started the Kopi Tiam concept first right? Then dude why can’t you apply the same principal, and just do what God has given you and do it well?

If only people and humans who say and claim that they want to serve the Lord do it with all their hearts and mind, we won’t and will not have a problem with having issues like this! Because we don’t have time to talk so much crap! Every minute someone who doesn’t know Jesus goes to hell and every second you talk your rubbish someone is lost to the world! So hey, go entertain yourself with a good show maybe ipman, or Iron man 2 oh ya Robin hood isn’t too bad too, if you have so much time!

If we say we are believers than we must stop looking at our differences and start looking at what we have in common. I’m off to save my world! I wrote this post because, I haven’t said anything at all in a long time, so since people like to say so much I shall allow them to say all they want. But I have a stand to make for myself too!

Off to save my world!

*the LED TV is really good if you want to watch movies =)

Since the start of the whole Recess Revolution movement, we have had all sorts of responses; most of it was excited, crazy, bold and courageous young people stepping up to say I’m on for it! Well of course we also have had many mixed feelings, doubts and “crazy” people saying all kinds of things about the whole movement and how it’s being run, done or organized.

Since its inception it was never an Acts Church Production, Pastor was (and still is) humbled enough to have said it a million times across Malaysia that it’s a vision of the Holy Spirit, at times I wonder wah so bold to say it’s the vision of the holy spirit, but guess what talk is cheap actions speak louder than words, and I can only say it has been a great one year and becoming greater, besides remembering the year, we want to say that everything that has happen is the work of the Holy Spirit, if it isn’t I don’t know how coincidental, the word coincidence mean.

Recess Revolution = Being a Christian in school. Simple isn’t it? Why complicate things? Our goal is to get teens, schooling people excited about the fact that, if our friends can’t come to church let’s bring church to them. It’s about living out the times and days of the church of Acts and just even blessing our surroundings and giving people around us the chance to experience what it is like to have Jesus in their lives. Why do we need to do this? Well we all know the Christian walk can some time be a lonely one, so we are trying our best with the limited resources to do what a multi millionaire church is suppose to do in compiling all the testimonies, resources, ideas and experiences so that young believers can also take this ideas and go out and share and be a blessing, so that people can draw strength and courage from the testimony and to tell these teens that loving Jesus and really shining for him isn’t a boring thing.

I have had many experiences leading or sharing with CFs and teen leaders, it scares me to think that some days we are all out, some days we are all cold, some days we are all hot, some days we just can’t be bothered. If only human beings understood that our main goal in life is to serve Jesus and to give our everything to Him, going to school would be a mission trip, going to tuition would be a rally; going to recess would be an altar call! I mean don’t we love to use all these big words? So yeah, lets move our faith, body, mind and soul and start being that Christian who would impact our schools!

The last negative comment I heard about Recess Revolution was, erm I don’t see the point in doing RR, then dude let me tell you one thing! I don’t see the point in your calling yourself a Christian either =) why? Simple, its not about doing doing doing, its about making it intentional weekly and hopefully becoming a lifestyle, to go out and DO THE VERY THING JESUS ASKED U TO DO! So why don’t you take your denominational ego, doctrinal correction theories and super wanna be attitudes and put them aside and start living like the songs we sing =)

Take take take it all? Take what all?

Always and forever what?

One way Jesus? Aren’t you afraid of offending someone?

Oh come on, its time we just shout it out! Jesus your worth it all

Loving God = Serving His most loved = Loving people= giving of your money, time and energy

Relationships

Every once in a while I will address this issue, because I guess it’s a real one and God made man who way, if not friends, family and churches would not have been necessary anyway. But this time, I think I’m writing it having felt a big hit on my back. So much so I think my life will never be the same again.

Relationships though beautiful has proven destructive in many ways, something that is close to my heart and I treasure the most seem to be the one that suffers all the time. Our love Relationship with Jesus – why does it seem to always be the first one to suffer? Is it because we can’t see, feel and touch God or is it because we just take Him totally for granted?  I don’t think leaders in church kill and persecute people when they choose to make STUPID decisions by dating unbelievers nor do we scare the soul out of you, because honestly since you lack so much love to the extend you need love from another mortal how then will we scare the living being out of you anymore?

I never could understand the word divorce nor could I understand why people choose to divorce, but I can assure you the past few years of my life I have seen more teens with parents who has divorce than all my 21 years added together.. its scary! This teens comes with different types of needs, some without a daddy figure in their life, some never experiencing their mum’s touch, and I blame it all on their parents. If you were not ready to take up your responsibility to coach, love and provide for your kids you have no rights to have SEX at all, don’t even talk about family planning. By nature dogs and cats and frogs care for their offspring’s until a certain age and by HUMAN LAW you are supposed to jaga your kids until they are 21 and yet you choose to neglect, divorce and not provide for your kids? Tell me about being low life? ( Well if you are a parent feel my strong words, if you are single why don’t you make relationship decisions which will determine how your kids will look at you)

I know of someone very close to me who has been in and out of relationships from the age of 12, she got out of it and then move on to another guy by the time she was form 1, then moved on to date again in form 3 and then moving on to another guy in form 3 and 4 and then form 5 and then now dating a joker… all in all, to be honest her last count is about 13 guys =) some guys stood up when they were challenge but eventually backed off, some ran to the padang but was later found, some was personally beaten up, as I look back and forth I can’t really find the words to describe how cheap skate and low will a person chose to live his or her life in this aspect of it. How do you face your kids in future when you see that uncle across that room and you tell them oh mummy kissed this uncle before when I was 13, how do you explain those pictures in Facebook when you were hugging by the beach to your kids when they ask out of shock and sadness? How do you? How do you? And how do you explain yourself for the things you have done to have cheated on your kid’s father, by not having preserved and giving your best to their father?

I think the very least we must and should have in our lives, is to choose to live by choice and by principles, not by our feelings or emotions which tells us that this man even though unsaved will come to know Jesus one day. Let’s stop lying to ourselves and lets stop abusing the “faith” word by saying, why cant you have the faith to know that God will soften his heart one day? I mean come on, let’s be real, why can’t you then trust that God has someone already for you? Why can’t you therefore believe that Jesus is your answer to your loneliness? Why can’t you choose to make a stand for your faith and resist the work of the enemy? Everyone in Malaysia knows and respect the fact that if you want to marry a muslim you need to convert into islam. But what about us? How have we carried our faith, if your walk with Christ so cheap that you will settle for anything less than the best?  Is your walk with God so lowly that you will choose to stop coming to church, avoid every single one who once cared and loved you for someone you almost know that you will lose very soon or any moment?

Let’s not even go into the topic of unbelievers, even with Christian dating each other we all have the potential of falling and crushing to the ground so what more dating an unbeliever? The past one week has almost been one of my toughest week, I shared with my Pastor that the revelations of certain things in my life on Friday morning will change my approach, life and the way I view things for a very long time. I crushed my spirit and hurt my inner being to know that someone so many people trusted used their influence over other people’s life to inflict wounds that might never be healed if they never seek God’s grace and help. For too long, I have been holding on and waiting for a change of my view towards a certain being, but the thoughts and sharing that fateful Friday morning caused my spirit to cry out loud!

So if you ask me today what do we do with the relationships that already exist with an unbeliever? Well to me it’s simple the word of God says you should have been in it anyway? It means BREAKUP! I remembered the Lord leading me to speak into some one’s life some time ago last year at a camp, and the call was clear, turn your eyes on Jesus or you will lose even your faith and true enough my dear brother is almost at the verge of it.. my theory is simple and here it goes- ever heard of your parents saying why are you always in school and never at home? Or why are you always with that friend and not helping your brother or sister out with some school work? Or maybe is your church more important than your family?

Well it just goes to prove that our human nature can only do so much, we can’t be everywhere all the time and so we evaluate each and every relationship during every season and choose which one to spend more time with. I would like to think the same, they day you make God a number 2 in your life is the day where you will choose the plans the devil and enemy has for you. The bible even says, if you want to follow Jesus, you ought to “Hate” your father and mother, but the other part of the word of God says love them and honor them with all your heart so how can God contradict His own word? Well the only explanation is this we need to love God so much that our love for our parents looks like as though we hate them. Let me explain this theory! I know having seen the word hate your parents itself sounds crazy to you but let me explain. A lot of our leaders and teens in church enjoy and sometimes have so much to do in church and ministry that they spend more time in church then they do at home, 5 out of 7 days they could be in church or doing ministry related stuff, so we end up having upset parents and grandmas, scolding and screaming at our leaders accusing them of not loving them anymore! But guess what, these are the very same leaders who will try to bring their parents to the “best” food in town, or try to steal pockets of time to show that they really do love their parents. Can it be that even though they love their parents very much, however their love for God’s house and ministry is greater?

I grew up having been thought that activities don’t define our faith and our love for God, but then again can I ask how do you serve God. Isn’t He up there there in heaven?  Does he need our offerings or fruits in the altar? Or even prayer? What can we do actually really serve Him? What can we really do to say and show our love for God? Seriously if you can teach me away that doesn’t require my time and money I will follow after you! But if making God my only first love and giving Him all my time and money is the way maybe then I don’t think I have made any wrong decisions.

My conclusion is this, if I have one life and only this much of me that is left to live, I must live it for Jesus =)

I’m inspired to do what I do because with pictures like these, I know its all worth it! Jesus You are beautiful and You are worthy!

A string of emo tweets across the past few days, a barrage of Facebook status and many a times a whisper of defeat in my ears. It has not been an easy journey so far, I’m beginning to feel a little worn out a little tired and at times a little frustrated. Find myself in desperation many a times, and most of the times just feeling stuck!

All I can say is that, I need Jesus more than ever again! God will never give me more than I can bear, but I feel I’m already reaching my breaking point, I feel I’m already coming to a place of letting go and wouldn’t mind going back to Manchester now! But I know if I let everything go I will never grow in faith and in my understanding of how much my Jesus really loves.

For those who know what I’m up to in this season of my life you know it, if you don’t I pray you read it knowing that Jesus is my deliverer. For days and weeks now, my biggest fear is this! How will I be able to juggle all these commitments and still serve like I’m serving in church now? How big is this fear, well I can almost say it’s bigger than my fear of failing my business. It’s too much to bear; it’s too much to get over with! It’s just really simple actually, maybe some people might say that I love the ministry more than the God of the ministry, but I can tell you one thing for sure, I don’t really know how to serve God anyway else but to put my hands to the plough. I infact am very prepared to throw in my towel and just be where I am at right now

Anyway I know Jesus will come through for me, gonna lift him higher in my life as I continue to see him move and rock my world! I already believe for a new car! What more can I ask for =)