Romans 3:13-14 says, “Their throat is an open sepulcher; with their tongues they have used deceit; the poison of asps is under their lips: Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness.”

Dear Friends, Parents, Pa ma, and loved ones,

I was on Facebook, looking at some pictures of my Ex students from Lick Hung just this afternoon, as I was remembering the beautiful days of teaching and just having fun with all of them, and of course remembering that by the time I get back most of them would have moved on to secondary school, and yeah I wouldn’t have had the privilege to meet all of them at once again. However that, regret was short lived, it turned into disgust, shock and anger the moment my eyes caught hold of some of the most disgusting and terrible words I myself wouldn’t use.

I am writing this blog posting because I am disturbed and feeling terribly disappointed. I hope and pray that we can make a difference in the lives of our children and the young ones around us, bringing them up in a non violent and an environment where people learnt to use words responsibly. I remembered very vividly an incident when my mum lost her composure when a stranger shouted stupid at her, because one of our neighbors kids were running across the street from our car and his car was driving very fast. Thank God nothing happen, but that dude had to turn down his window and shout some nasty stuff at my mum, I was very young back then (if I was old enough boy oh boy), well he said “Stupid”! And that was it, it was enough to get my mum all upset and trigger the tiger in her. I was thinking what’s the big deal lor? Isn’t it just the word Stupid? Well another time, I wasn’t in my best of mood and my mum asked me to go and pay the parking in Mid Valley, and I had to get all upset and whisper gently >.< “MaTe” in Mandarin, the consequences of that no big deal word? My mum didn’t speak to me for 1 month T.T (it’s tough la, when you need pocket money ok:P)

That got me thinking! To be honest, it wasn’t the church who was teaching me all these manners and values, because my friends in church were using it like as though we should start singing them in our worship songs in the near future.

I think it’s time; we pinch ourselves where it hurts the most and wake up to reality! There is no such thing as “it’s ok what, the word doesn’t mean what it actually means, and it’s just used as an expression” As Christian we believe in the let your yes be yes and no be no command, so how does saying the F word and saying it doesn’t portray what you are actually really feeling okay? I urge you to wake up and realized that our actions and words today, will determine the future of the coming generations. I was discussing with my friends about sex after marriage here last night, and of course it felt like I was always losing out on the argument, but I made my stand and told them I know for a fact that I am not losing anything and in fact I am gaining everything. However, there are many good friends of mine, who either don’t dare to say it out loud that they have not done it or just fake it that they have done it =_=”

Sex was once a taboo, like the F word, the D word, the S word and many more, but today it’s as simple to access as it is to buy cabbage in pasar malam. Have all our values and principles gone to those of the dogs? Or have we only evolved to become a species who only wants to be soaking in pleasure and doing things the way we feel like it? I got really annoyed and I still do when I see people on Facebook who claims to be a Christian – AOG, Baptist or whatever denomination you come from and then go on Fing this and Fing that! I am not bothered really about your testimony anymore or what people think of you, because more often than not this type of shameless people can’t be bothered to care enough if their best friend is actually hurting when he or she sees you just rooting in society.

I remember when I was in high school we went as far a class to collect RM1 for every –shit, damn, fuck, stupid, idiot, bloody and the list was long long and we collected RM32. Actually the amount would have been much higher if not for the fact that there was a price to pay for using such words. People speak as though there is no tomorrow now days because all of us are either fed up, already or have actually joined in the Fing group.

We first and foremost forget to say please and thank you to each other, and then now bulak we promote damning each other, and then we start Fing each other, and then we try to send everyone to hell! With WTH, WTF and so on! I blame every one of you and myself for not having done enough, or guilty of using such words in the midst of the children, which has not only hurt them more often than not, but we have successfully cultivated a “rude” and lousy culture, which curse every single thing on planet earth.

Let’s do our part and stop using such words, and begin to practice a bit more love and care in our lives. Let’s use our social network sides with care, and taming and guarding our tongue to WHAT GOD HAS INTENDED for us to be. That we shall be a blessing to the nations and not one that curses every single thing under the SUN.

“I love you Daddy, Blessed Birthday See you in a month’s time “

First and foremost I hope you will be patient with streamyx and listen to this song which I think is really expresses my love for you!

Running in Hyde Park, London

Thank you for your love, faith and trust in me and for giving your life towards our upbringing. To say you are the best is an understatement, to say you have given your all is too little for what you have give us, Thank you for giving me a mountain and backing so big that I know that if I ever fall you will always be there to catch me Blessed Birthday and may the Lord continue to expand your territory and that God will restore onto us those that He has promised us of in Joel 2:18 – 27 ( I pray you find time to read this verse, as I found it to be a blessing as my dear friend shared it with me).

Reaching the world through technology and taking hold of the very instruments the devil has been using for his purposes and turning it around for the expansion of God’s work:)

Well Done Darren and Cheryl! and of course Acts TV

“Never Let disappointment be louder than your worship!!! Lord teach me ”

Nice song isn’t it? love the beat the hype and the semangat feel it brings doesn’t it? BUT DUDE WHY DONT YOU CHECK OUT THE LYRICS?

For many people its ok, drink, dancing on the sofa and having a great time is not a big deal at all, so Joshua please dont make a big deal out of it! Well honey sorry to disappoint you I am not making a big deal out of it, I just think it’s almost out of the question.

The clubbing industry is surely one of the growing industry in the entertainment sector and oh so is gay tourism k (so if you argue that you have to be updated and modern and bla bla go join a gay cruise soon). Being in the tourism industry, I cant help but to spent a lot of my time researching new trends that will help companies make loads of money & yes clubbing which is like duh accompanied by drinking is a big big industry.

I look to this issue with concern, and not my normal “disgust”! its scary how a 16 year old girl back home, was given a party by her parents with a dark room, awesome lights and “awesome music”, oh ya happy birthday. Don’t worry nothing wrong with all these stuff at all! so yeah you are safe But what concerns me is this = the picture and idea of coolness we are painting towards this generation of people. Its so very dangerous, we all know what kind of things can happen in such places, sex, drugs, drunkenness and the list goes on! oh what about hang overs. I find it troubling and annoying when so many Malaysians become so wanna be. Daddy if you are reading this, lets start a night club too:) just too many idiots are falling into the idea that drinking, dancing in exotic positions is extremely cool so yeah, lets be the smart one and keep ourselves away from the bad stuff and earn the money “the good stuff”!

I was in London just 2 weeks back, and I was at a place where all the clubs were and guess what? drivers were dropping of girls from luxury cars RR and other Jeeps dressed in erm? Strings? straps? gosh what do you call those? erm of course its shiok to the eyes la, what you think? girls wearing straps that do not cover their top anymore just the nipple? =_= soon, I think they should just use super glue and stick lima puluh sen on it!

What is better is this, Christian leaders posting or being tagged by friends in clubs in weird positions which you normally find in  ”>erm brothels (cause you not yet married mah, if want to do that kind of thing must go find chicken). Honestly, lets stop misleading our teens, our future generation! Lets have the balls to be laughed at by the world and say outright, its not a right lifestyle and certainly dont give me, if you are not among the non believers how are you going to reach out rubbish!

Of course, I am not suggesting Christians to be orbit, but who defines coolness? who set trends? who determines whats in and whats out? Well it’s really just marketing! its really all in the head, and if we can do our part and show that not all the time prom and balls and after parties and kononnya whatever the west do is cool, we will built and pass on our own culture and trend. Sure I sound like a good boy, too good to have been to one sorry ah, paiseh I have of course been to one! >.< and thats why I can write in detail the super cool stuff that is happening inside. So if you want to know my stand on clubbing ? I AM AGAISNT IT I say this statement with not much of a doubt! simple as this, if you are a person who choose not to drink at all because  you dont want to fall into the deeper category, I think clubbing is pretty much the same & boy do I have to say it? well yeah I am not in favour of drinking too!

I find it extremely amusing, when idiots come running and sharing their glorious holidays used on drinking by the beach or the bar or maybe erm dumbos telling me gosh you should try that shot in chillies =_=” Soon I hope, drinking pee and eating poop will be a cool thing too! all the best you cool dudes.

I dont think I am at all apologetic about this post, I think it’s either you are in or you are out, either you desire to live to persue  and fulfill your calling, or you continue to compromise your stands and be swayed and destroyed.

Ces’t La vie all the best friends.

* Just a thought?

ever wondered what so sweet about your sweet 16?

whats the big deal about the 21st birthday?

Whats the big deal with celebrating erm your 15th bday?

Whats the big deal seriously? I celebrate birthdays every year with people who are special to me, because the person is special not the age? like duh? I bet some Pastry came up with the idea that every birthday there should be a cake idea. I want to celebrate birthdays I loved to celebrate birthdays because you mean the world to me, not because your age makes any difference.

I turn 21 next year, and as I think through things? whats the big deal? I still need to feed on my parent’s hard-earned money to study when I need to? I still need my mum’s sweat to go on that holiday and birthday party! So yeah, until the day I get my own job and for me its a company! I am not yet independent, not yet “free” the thought leads me to think ? do you want to be free? when you are under your parents love and care you know you can fall back on them! so why scream so loud about freedom when you know you depend on your mum and dad so much! BODOH

London posts can wait

There are days when I write to myself, and there are days when I write to myself and my friends through my blog. Sometimes when I write about my faith and how my situations are really pushing me off the edge, I write them not because I have perfected my faith, but because I need to write them so that some people can be inspired to grow with me, but most importantly for myself! I need to speak it into my spirit, I need to soak myself in the knowlegdge and be once again reminded of how great Jesus is.

This one week, could or would have change my life! There were days when I felt broken, and there were days when my faith was a little shaken. Shaken because the things that are happening around me dont seem to be real (or maybe at least I dont want them to be real). Its been a tough week, hold on to Jesus dearly just like how I would hold on to my RAV4 while driving it (that car is my dad’s baby thats why ) To cut the long story short, life was never meant to be easy and a pile of roses for us to lay on! however,

“my life is surely a set up for my God to show up and show off! “

I won’t understand why He did what He did, but can I say when you dont know what He is doing, its better you hurt yourself by cutting a small wound rather than a fatal fall later! How do you determine good times and bad times? there are days when God allow “bad things” (bad things in our own definition) to be meant for good and yet we dont see it!

When the full reality of things sets in, its not going to be easy to adjust, but I know I will survive through it all and come out victoriously! Jesus all I need is You, guide me and lead us once again, show and give us direction. We surrender and WE LOVE YOU LORD.

 ”As I walk through a new season of faith and hanging on to Jesus, its not going to be all good and rossy! but I have lived 20 years to know that, what ever happens, God is still able, I shall not speak like a defeated person, but one who knows his hope and future is in Jesus! God has once again, reminded me that it’s (life & success ) really and seriously all about Him. If we think we can do what we want to do and succeed in life we are terribly messed up! I wrote down some where yesterday day ” though I have all the rights to claim what I need, its not Him that owes me its me that owes Him all too much” Lord we look to you onece more. Your mercies endures forever!  

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it’s still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can’t find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

***Chorus***

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Just when you thought its all okay and perfect something just has to go slightly wrong. Another dreadful opportunity I must say for me to train and put my acclaim faith to test, another painful experience and maybe another molding one. It’s not the time to proclaim game over I guess, but rather a time to proclaim and speak that God is able, God is our only hope and future and most importantly, the fact that I serve a mighty God should never escape my mind.

Maybe as I grow older each day, I learn to encounter different challenges and as I am able to understand each challenge differently. My heart has also been stretch and dragged around a bit throughout the past one year and it was found to be weak at times and strong at times. But I guess through it all, we aren’t as human being able to carry ourselves through any storm, and I guess our creator knows that its only right when we do what’s required of our body, that is to worship and focus on Jesus.

Once again, found at the foot of the cross surrendering our everything, knowing that we serve a mighty God. ( I guess there is a difference between begging and doing what we should do) No matter what, God we just surrender to you once again, we just know that only You can deliver us through it all!

Working on a whole series of postings on my trip in London, look at this video and for once, just JUDGE it! aiyo, where can like this one church, all the spending on lights, all the rubbish sound systems and whatever not! just whack it all you want la k!

Simple as this, I just find Christians who think that the church should function like as if we lived in the 15th century, terrible cartoons worst than Hello Kitty! We must sing only songs written by saints, and songs that sound old. I remember very vividly one very “cute” statement a church elder said:” When I was in Singapore, I saw people queuing up to attend church service in Suntec city and there were hundreds of them” nothing wrong with this statement, but he went on condemning how mega churches seem to become a party house? Being silly boy at that time I was like tsk tsk tsk Sinner. But as I look back, I find it a joke that someone whom people call church elder, condemns or jokes about the fact that another church’s growth and size. I mean come on if you have a small church of course there is no need to line up, if you have a small church congregation with a sitting capacity of 400 of course la, no need to do any ushering and coordination. But what annoys me most is this, simply because a church is growing in size people say it’s not God, but the sound system and lightings in the church – I say then why don’t you fix those lights and PA system that the Singapore church has also? I mean if that cause’s church growth as you claim shouldn’t you do something about it? Or are you just too ignorant to see the need to reach out?  

It’s funny how these things bother me to this day, but I hope as I throw out questions and challenge the ideals of some joker (to me) our brains and our hearts will begin to realized that church never existed for ourselves, church was never meant to keep some tradition the British or American churches developed, but move forward and adapt as our needs us to adapt, just like when all the denominations and mainstream churches in China was thrown out, and what exist was faith and the word of God. That’s why the church in China is growing like the days of Acts, that’s why china is experiencing Revival. As churches around the world wake up to reclaim our role that God has called us to be, I am excited and just like what God has planted in Pastor Kenneth’s heart, let’s be the REVOLUTION that will transform our world, lets inspire teens in schools to change their world and adults to rock their world in their market place! Let’s do this, lets change the world and not protect tradition.

I remember one resounding statement Kuan Cheen made during a series of meetings in a previous organizations we were involve together in. “ Are we here to protect traditions or change lives”