A string of emo tweets across the past few days, a barrage of Facebook status and many a times a whisper of defeat in my ears. It has not been an easy journey so far, I’m beginning to feel a little worn out a little tired and at times a little frustrated. Find myself in desperation many a times, and most of the times just feeling stuck!
All I can say is that, I need Jesus more than ever again! God will never give me more than I can bear, but I feel I’m already reaching my breaking point, I feel I’m already coming to a place of letting go and wouldn’t mind going back to Manchester now! But I know if I let everything go I will never grow in faith and in my understanding of how much my Jesus really loves.
For those who know what I’m up to in this season of my life you know it, if you don’t I pray you read it knowing that Jesus is my deliverer. For days and weeks now, my biggest fear is this! How will I be able to juggle all these commitments and still serve like I’m serving in church now? How big is this fear, well I can almost say it’s bigger than my fear of failing my business. It’s too much to bear; it’s too much to get over with! It’s just really simple actually, maybe some people might say that I love the ministry more than the God of the ministry, but I can tell you one thing for sure, I don’t really know how to serve God anyway else but to put my hands to the plough. I infact am very prepared to throw in my towel and just be where I am at right now 
Anyway I know Jesus will come through for me, gonna lift him higher in my life as I continue to see him move and rock my world! I already believe for a new car! What more can I ask for =)
